My Love-Hate Relationship...

...with certain blogs.

Several months ago I lived in a world where people lived like me....
Where they had happy homes, roofs over their head, food to eat, children to love. 

Over the last few months, God has used some blogs that I read to open my eyes to a world that I frankly do not like!  Tent cities, baby orphans sleeping on dirt floors, a picture of a Mom & child sleeping on the sidewalk naked-- only covered in a sheet, orphans that are my son's age who are going to institutions to live the rest of what will probably be a short,hard life, and more.

I hate these blogs.

I hate them because they open my eyes to devastation I just don't understand.  I can't put my blinders on and pretend it doesn't exist anymore.  I hate them because they make me cry....I mean bawl like a baby and cry out to Jesus!

I love these blogs.

I love them because God is using them to grow me.  I need this truth.  About a year ago, I was praying to God for him to break my heart for what breaks his.  My heart is broken.  The truth is awful, but necessary. 

I know I can't save the world---that's what Jesus came to do.  I'm just praying for God to use me in a REAL way for HIS glory.